Outside

I am standing over the casket
Looking at his shell
Yellow ties are all around me
Everything is bright and dim all at once

I am on the outside
Alone
But He is with me

Can anyone know me now
Is the hole visible to everyone around me
Some draw me close
But the wall is impenetrable

I am on the outside
Alone
But He is with me

Time passes and moves forward
I can’t will it backward
I accept and I resist
Does he watch over me?

I am on the outside
Alone
But He is with me

I am standing over her crib
Will the hole be visible to her?
I draw her close
My wall begins to weaken

I am on the outside
Alone
But He is with me

The gift of life he gave to me
And I have given life to 7
Now inside this family
I am not alone

He is with me

Christina Gignoux